Friday, February 3, 2012

McLaurin update #17 1/2: "Bless the LORD, O my soul..."

Prayer warriors,
 
A brief update to say THANK YOU  for praying!  Colby's blood tests and MRI scan both turned out wonderfully this week!  We won't have the final radiologist's interpretation until next week, but we were able to look at the images together with him and with Colby's oncologist, and they look fantastic!  Definitely no progression, growth, or contrast enhancement.  Praise the Lord!  
 
[103:1] Bless the LORD, O my soul,
  and all that is within me,
  bless his holy name!
 [2] Bless the LORD, O my soul,
  and forget not all his benefits,
 [3] who forgives all your iniquity,
  who heals all your diseases,
 [4] who redeems your life from the pit,
  who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy,
 [5] who satisfies you with good
  so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.
(Psalm 103:1-5 ESV)
 
Please pray for Colby and the team going from HHBC to Nicaragua this weekend.  Colby will be taking his chemo while he is there, and really needs the Lord to be with him and keep him healthy and strong while serving.  Emily, Jireh, and SiSi also need the Lord's presence to comfort and sustain them while Colby is away.  Thank God for his loving omnipresence and sovereignty!
 
 
In His service,
 
Colby, Emily, and Jireh

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

McLaurin update #17: ...”do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you...”

Dear Prayer Warriors,

The next few weeks will be challenging for us and an opportunity for great blessing!  All the more reason to ask for prayer!

As we write, we are waiting for results from a blood test Colby had this morning.  He has to have blood drawn about 3 weeks after starting each cycle of chemotherapy (at least once a month).  The blood test helps Colby’s oncologist determine if the dose of chemo is hurting his body too much and needs to be adjusted down.  Today’s blood test will reflect his body’s response to the highest dose of temozolomide he has been on yet.  Pray that Colby’s blood counts will not have dropped at all!

We will also have our next MRI scan this Friday morning, Feb 3rd.  Because Colby’s health insurance changed, this MRI will be done at a different hospital where neither of us can look up the images ourselves.  However, Emily knows the radiologist that will be reading the scans.  We hope to be able to sit down with him immediately after the scan is done to look at it together and compare it to prior exams.  Pray that the tumor would be even smaller, or would disappear completely!

There is the challenge.  So how about the blessing?  Blessing will come through watching Christ glorify Himself in us as He sustains us.  He has also blessed both of us with unique opportunities for ministry recently.  This is a specific answer to our prayers.  Thank you for your faithfulness in prayer for us!

Emily has been asked to lead a retreat for medical student women in the Christian Medical and Dental Associations (CMDA) at the OU an OSU medical schools.  Praise God for this opportunity!  The retreat will be Friday and Saturday, March 9th-10th.  It will probably be held in our home.  Please pray for Emily and for the student leadership at both campuses as they prepare for this retreat together!

On Saturday Feb 4th Colby will be traveling to Nicaragua for a medical/evangelistic mission trip with a team from our church.  This was a last minute opportunity that we feel was provided by the Lord.  Colby has also been asked to preach (with translation) at the church in Nicaragua with which we partner in ministry.  That service will be Sunday night, Feb 5th.  In addition to sharing his testimony Colby is preparing to share from a passage of scripture that has blessed him enormously since his diagnosis: 1 Peter 4:12-19.  It also happens to be the passage that our church in OK, Henderson Hills, will be covering that weekend as a part of an ongoing series on 1 Peter.  Colby hopes this will bless not only the Nicaraguan’s present but also his American team members.  Please pray for mercy in Colby’s preparation and travel and that God would prepare the hearts of the people with whom his team will interact.

As you can see, we will be getting a lot of potentially life-altering information this week.  And should we be surprised that our faith would be tested at this exact moment in time, when we are on the verge of wonderful opportunities to glorify the Lord?  Should we worry?  Can God be trusted even with this?  

    [12] Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. [13] But rejoice insofar as you share Christ's sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed.
(1 Peter 4:12-13 ESV)

God can be trusted, and He will glorify himself.  That is certain.  There is, however, another spiritual power at work that the Bible calls “our adversary.”  He wants nothing more than for these trials to turn us away from faith in Christ...and be “devoured:”

    [8] Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. [9] Resist him, firm in your faith
(1 Peter 5:8-9 ESV)

God is faithful.  He is worthy of our trust.  Prepare to rejoice!

    [19] Therefore let those who suffer according to God's will entrust their souls to a faithful Creator while doing good.
(1 Peter 4:19 ESV)


A recap of prayer requests:

1. Pray for Colby’s blood test result and MRI this week.  We will give you the update on these as soon as we know it.

2. Pray for Emily and CMDA student leaders as they prepare for the women’s retreat in March.

3. Pray for the team from HHBC that will be traveling to Nicaragua this weekend, and for all of the Nicaraguans that will be touched through this ministry.  Pray for Colby as he prepares to share with our partner church in Nicaragua this Sunday evening.

4. Continue to pray for clarity on Colby’s future in work and ministry.  This is the area of his life that is the most emotionally challenging these days.  Pray that whatever Colby does, it be effective for the Kingdom and bring glory to Christ.


Thank you for laboring in prayer for us!


Because He first loved us,

Colby, Emily, and Jireh McLaurin


Sunday, January 8, 2012

McLaurin update #16: ”if we are faithless, he remains faithful”

Dear Prayer Warriors Jan 8, 2012

It looks like it has been a month since we sent our last update, but we can tell that you haven’t stopped praying.  We are thankful that your faithfulness in prayer does not depend on our faithfulness in providing updates.  Similarly, the Lord’s faithfulness is not dependent on our remaining faithful:

“The saying is trustworthy, for:
If we have died with him, we will also live with him;
if we endure, we will also reign with him;
if we deny him, he also will deny us;
if we are faithless, he remains faithful—
for he cannot deny himself.”
(2 Timothy 2:11-13 ESV)

The Lord cannot “deny himself,” or act contrary to His character as revealed in scripture.  His righteousness demands justice against those who “deny him.”  It also demands faithfulness to the promises He gives us in scripture, even when we are not faithful to ours.  One such promise is this:

“And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.”
(Philippians 1:6 ESV)

God is certainly doing a good work in us through this trial, and we are reminded every day of his faithfulness.

Colby had his first post-radiation MRI scan on Dec 9th.  Colby spoke with the neuroradiologist that day, and to both his and the radiologist’s eyes, it looks better!  We were praying that the 16% of the original tumor volume that remains would be gone.  Was it gone?  Well, not really...but maybe!  

Let us explain what this means:  After the neurosurgeon removed 84% of the tumor, we were told that the goal of postoperative radiation and chemotherapy was to push the remaining tumor into a “chronic” state.  That is, that we may always see the abnormal “signal” on MRI scans indicating an area that is not normal brain, but that the area will remain the same over time.  However, there are other things besides tumor that can can cause abnormal “signal,” including what we call “treatment effect.”  Blood vessels that receive radiation are a little more leaky and can change the “signal” in that part of the brain.  This area of abnormal “signal” is what we will be continuing to follow on MRI scans about every 2 months for the next year, Lord willing.  What we hope is that the area of abnormal signal will not grow, change, or become “contrast enhancing.”  Contrast enhancement occurs with the most malignant forms of glioma.  Though Colby’s tumor is malignant, it was not previously contrast-enhancing.  An increase in size or enhancement might indicate it is getting worse.  

The great news is that Colby’s tumor is still non-enhancing, has not grown, and to Colby’s and the radiologist’s eyes, it may even be smaller!  There is still some abnormal signal.  At this time we cannot be sure if that is tumor or treatment effect.  So, there could still be tumor in Colby’s brain, or we could just be seeing “treatment effect.”  An MRI scan cannot tell us for certain, so medically speaking we must assume there is still tumor present and continue to treat according to plan.  What does that mean for us?

That means cycles of chemotherapy for at least the next year, Lord willing.  It is the same chemo that Colby was taking during radiation but at a much higher dose.  In fact, he has already finished his first cycle and tolerated it wonderfully!  See what we mean about the Lord’s faithfulness?  The temozolomide, like many forms of chemo, can have some bad side effects that we have to watch out for.  In addition to the nausea that Colby has already experienced in the past, the chemo can severely decrease the production of white blood cells in his bone marrow and make him more susceptible to serious infections.  That is a true risk with what we do for a living, especially now with the cold and flu season in full swing!  However, God brought Colby through the first cycle with almost no side effects!  We even enjoyed a family cruise (cruise ships being infamous for being disease factories) between Christmas and New Years without getting sick at all!  He will start the next cycle on Tuesday, at an even higher dose than the last.

Colby continues to work full time with no real limitations except those imposed on him from outside.  Emily is finally adjusting to her new work schedule and the demands of a new electronic medical record.  Though she remains busier than she was prior to the rollout of the EMR, she continues to have time to focus on and see the rewards of the ministry side of her hospitalist practice.  Jireh is a full-fledged two-year old with all of the challenges that come with parenting this age.  However, she is also an incredible joy to watch as she grows and develops.  She is especially enjoying developing her musical side as she sings all the time and has even picked up the violin (we use the term “picked up” loosely)!

SiSi, our Chinese Au Pair, had a wonderful time in Washington D.C. after Christmas.  Thank you for praying for her!  She attended a Bridges International conference there with many other students from China and other countries.  In addition to seeing many of the tourist sites in D.C., she learned a great deal about Christ at the conference.  She is very eager to learn, and reads her Chinese-English bible with a fervor that should put many of us to shame.  We have had several wonderful conversations about faith since she returned.  She is very honest with herself, us, and with God that she does not yet believe in Christ.  She is counting the costs and understands that the life of a Christian, especially in China, is not easy.  She also seems to understand that she cannot “pretend” to have faith and think that God is fooled.  However, she says she wants to believe, and we think she is very close.

So let’s keep praying!  

1) That Colby would be able to tolerate the higher dose of chemo without any change in his white blood cell count.

2) That God would heal Colby in a miraculous way.  He will have his next MRI scan in early February, and we would love to share great news again!

3) That as we experience the faithfulness of God, He will give us the gift of being able to be faithful to Him in all circumstances.  Our busy routines are setting in, and we do not want to be in a position of being busy without purpose.

4) Jireh will be spending a few more days in day care in the weeks to come as SiSi looks forward to taking TOEFL classes.  Pray that she will adjust well between being with SiSi all day and going to daycare occasionally.  

5)  Please also pray that Jireh does not bring home any infections from daycare (and that we don’t bring any home ourselves from our hospitals!) that will adversely affect Colby’s health.  

6)  That our lives will daily bring glory to Christ.  We pray that Sisi and Jireh will be drawn to Jesus despite living with us when we make mistakes and behave in unholy ways.  We trust God to soften their hearts and to give them each their own powerful stories that will tell of how they know that Jesus Christ is their Lord and Savior...all in His perfect timing.  We continue to pray for opportunities to share our stories of God’s faithfulness that many more will know and enjoy Jesus forever.



Following a faithful Father,

Colby, Emily, and Jireh


Sunday, December 18, 2011

McLaurin update #15: rejoice always, pray without ceasing…



Dear Loved Ones:

We realize it has been a long time since we sent an update.  However,
we can tell we are still being upheld by your prayers.  We certainly
had much to be thankful for during this Thanksgiving holiday.  We were
reminded so clearly by this passage of scripture that we studied
beforehand with a group of brothers and sisters from church:

“Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all
circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.”
(1 Thess 5:16-18)

We have so much to thank our heavenly Father for, despite what our
circumstances may look like.  Emily’s work pressures have been more
difficult and time-consuming than ever as she is learning to use a
new electronic health record while trying to continue to provide
excellent care for her patients and for our family.  Colby has also in
the last few weeks frequently battled disappointment and uncertainty
about his own job.  But we know prayer is different from “hoping for”
something or “positive thinking.”  It is different, because the object
of prayer is God, not me, and:

“The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the
earth.  He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is
unsearchable.  He gives power to the faint and to him who has no might
he increases strength.  Even youths shall faint and be weary, and
young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the LORD shall
renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they
shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” (Isaiah
40:28-31)

Yes, this is God who does not grow weary as we do.  His understanding
is not limited as ours is.  And those who wait for Him and depend on
Him, He rewards with renewal of strength.  Keep praying!  Yes, this is
God who sent his only Son to be born a human baby on that first
Christmas, live perfectly, and die innocently to take our just
punishment so that we could be forgiven and restored to fellowship
with Him.

We were also reminded of each of you who, on our behalf, “pray without
ceasing" (1 Thess 5:17).  Thank you.  May our hope continue to rest
in Christ alone, who is the Great Physician.

We continue to be amazed at how the Lord has sustained Colby
physically and our whole family in spirit.  Colby finished chemo and
radiation almost 4 weeks ago and has been on a long break since that
time.  Praise the Lord that he made it through the entire course with
very minimal side effects and no true complications.  Colby continued to
work throughout treatment and is enjoying caring for his patients more
than ever.  He did get a little fatigued in the last week of the 7 week course, 
but he feels like his energy level almost completely returned to
normal within the first week after completing treatment.  He did not
need any steroids, pain medicine, or change to any of his medicines
during the whole course.  He has had none of the symptoms which would
be concerning for tumor progression: such as seizures, headache,
vision changes, dizziness, etc.  God has been so good to us.

We have nothing to fear…because we have a good and sovereign God.
Remember that, and let’s keep praying!  Here’s how:

1)      Colby’s first post-treatment MRI is tomorrow morning.  Yes, that’s
kind of a big deal.  It feels a little silly to pray for an MRI, but we
think we can pray even more expectantly now that we will soon see the
outcome of our prayers for healing!  We are praying that the 16% of
tumor that remained would be gone!  Certainly that is not what would
be expected from the treatment, but God can do it, and it would
clearly be a miracle if he did!  Are you ready to praise Him?

2)      Colby will start the next stage of treatment on Monday.  This means
monthly cycles of chemotherapy for at least a year.  It will be the
same chemo, in pill form, but will be at twice the dose as he took
during his radiation treatments.  Please pray that he would have no
side effects, no nausea, no drop in the infection-fighting white blood
cell counts, and no infections.

3)      Praise the Lord for SiSi Liu, our new Au Pair.  She is from China,
is living with us, and is helping us care for Jireh during the day
while we are working.  That keeps Jireh out of day care during the
cold and flu season and keeps her from bringing illness home to Colby
while he is on chemo.  SiSi is helping Jireh learn Chinese.  She is also
very interested in learning about Christianity, which she has had no
exposure to in China.  We spend time together as a family studying the
Bible, and she will attend a Bridges International conference in
Washington D.C. after Christmas to learn more about Christ.  Pray that
this will bear fruit for her Joy!

4)      Praise the Lord for many opportunities to share our story and
glorify God in the midst of this trial!  Colby has had several
opportunities to share his testimony and scripture that has upheld us
with different groups and individuals recently.  We are praying for
more opportunities.  Please pray with us that Christ would get the
glory through our lives and that we would embrace the words of John
the Baptist, who said:  “He must increase, but I must decrease.”

Come thou long expected Jesus!

For His glory,
Colby, Emily, and Jireh McLaurin


Monday, November 7, 2011

McLaurin Update #14: That the power of Christ may rest upon us

Dear Friends and Family,                                                                               11.7.11

This update will be short, as the Lord has filled our days with many joys and many struggles.  Both are gifts from God.  We hope to be able to share more details with you at another time.  In the mean time, Colby has started his last week of radiation and Emily’s demands at work have increased considerably.  We are asking for your prayers again, knowing that your prayers have been an incredible source of blessing and protection for us.  This week promises to be a challenging one, but we know that the Bible says, “`My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’  Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  For the sake of Christ, then I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities.  For when I am weak, then I am strong (2 Corinthians 2:9-10).”  How glorious it is that when we are weak, the power of Christ simply rests upon us to provide strength rather than to crush us!

PRAISES:
1.     Our neighbors have continued to provide meals for us.  We are overwhelmed by their generosity and commitment to shoulder our burdens with us!  Their generosity has opened up more consistent quality time together for us as a family.

2.     Colby has made it through 6 weeks of chemotherapy and radiation with minimal side effects so far!  He has been able to do cardiovascular exercise on most days and still goes to work every day.  We are amazed at how well he has done.  And while Jireh and Emily had colds recently, Colby has been able to avoid getting sick so far.   

PRAYER REQUESTS:   
1.     Healing:  We believe that God can completely heal Colby if He so chooses.  This last week of radiation is the last bit of radiation that he can have during his lifetime.  We are praying for effective treatments.  Please pray, also, that Colby continues to remain healthy despite being on chemotherapy. 
2.     Endurance:  Colby noticed that he is much more fatigued after his radiation treatment today than he has been over the last many weeks.  He feels the impact both mentally and physically.  Please pray that he will tolerate this final week of radiation therapy and that his mind will continue to remain clear.  Please pray also for minimal long-term side effects.
3.     Patience and grace:  With the rising fatigue anticipated this week, there will be temptation to become more selfish and impatient with one another and potentially also with Jireh.  We pray that we will be able to truly support one another this week and desire to be quick to forgive one another when we are not patient or kind.
4.     Wisdom:  With the implementation of the electronic health record taking place at work, Emily needs to learn efficiency with this new system without sacrificing quality of care and ministry to her patients. 
All glory to Christ,
Colby, Emily, and Jireh      

Sunday, October 16, 2011

McLaurin update #13: you will find rest for your souls

Dear Friends and Family,                                                                                                  October 16, 2011

            We hope that this letter finds you all doing well and enjoying the autumn weather wherever you may be.  We are delighted to share that Colby is almost halfway through with his combined radiation and chemotherapy treatments.  He has only just today noticed some hair falling out, but he isn't too concerned.  He continues to do so well, and we know that this is purely by God’s kind mercy working through your prayer.  Colby is able to eat, rest, exercise, and work. Most importantly, his mind is still sharp and allows him to meditate on and enjoy Scripture daily.  

            After visiting the “Passages” exhibit at the Oklahoma Museum of Art, which displays the story of how the Bible was written, compiled, preserved, translated, and protected through all of time, we have an even deeper appreciation for the Bible.  God’s Word is a remarkable gift.  Its truths have sustained men and pointed them to God for centuries, and we are thankful that God has not allowed His Word to be lost over time.  That we have the freedom to read our Bibles daily, to know God intimately, and to be confident in Him regardless of our circumstances is a tremendous blessing.  He has opened the eyes of our hearts, “that [we] may know what is the hope to which he has called [us], what are the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and what is the immeasurable greatness of his power toward us who believe, according to the working of his great might that he worked in Christ when he raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly places… (Ephesians 1:18-20).”  Wow! 

            Emily has experienced a new freedom this week, which has also been a gift from the Lord.  Prior to this week, the burden of care for our family has felt overwhelmingly heavy despite the facts that God has answered prayers, that Colby has been doing well, and that all of our needs have been met.  Plenty of bitterness was creeping into her heart. Then she was reminded by scripture one morning as if the passage said, “Emily, Emily, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary.  Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her (Luke 10:41-42).” That “good portion” is Jesus himself.  Later while praying for a patient, Scripture again came to her mind: “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light (Matthew 11:28-30).”  The work to be done day-to-day has not changed and in many ways has increased, but the load no longer feels unbearable.  Once again, Emily hopes that she will be able to laugh at the days to come (Proverbs 31:25). 

            Thank you for walking this journey alongside us and for bringing our prayer requests before the Lord.  We pray that you will also be blessed as you bless us.

PRAYER REQUESTS:

1. Pray for endurance and effective treatments.  Colby has 4 weeks of combined radiation and chemotherapy remaining, followed by several months of continuing chemotherapy to endure.  We are praying for healing, and trusting in the Lord.  More importantly, we are praying that God be glorified regardless of the outcome.
 2.    “We’ve a story to tell to the nations.”  Continue to pray that we would have opportunities to be faithful witnesses to the grace of God in our lives.  Colby is still looking for opportunities to share his testimony in any format, event, or country.  We know that God has great plans for us in this world, and we are excited to see how He will use us!   
 3. Pray for Jireh and for our role as her parents.  For a two year old whose routine was heavily disrupted in June, she has done wonderfully.  However, we have been unsuccessful in returning consistently back to her routines, which can be quite stressful.



This email list is intended to include people who have directly or indirectly asked to be on it because they would like to pray for us.  As always, if you are receiving this email but not interested in praying, or would rather not be on this list for any reason, please let us know.  We will not be offended at all and agree that it would be appropriate to remove your email address from it.  Also, if there is anyone who you think would like to pray for us who may not be receiving these updates, please send us an email address and we will gladly add more prayer warriors.


Resting in Christ,

Emily, Colby, and Jireh

Monday, October 3, 2011

McLaurin Update # 12: Drawing near to the throne of grace

Dear Family and Friends,                                                                   October 3, 2011

            We are delighted to share with you that Colby’s first week of chemotherapy and radiation went well!  Thank you so much for your prayers and continued encouragement.  Daily, the Lord is teaching us how to rely more on Him alone rather than in our own strengths, gifts, and plans. 
            Colby’s first day of treatment last Monday seemed to start off without any problems.  Lying on the radiation table was easy, pain free, and quick.  His Temodar (chemotherapy) stayed down without any problems.  When he got home he thought, “This is a piece of cake!  I’m young and healthy and this is going to be easy.”  But 3-4 hours after treatment, waves of vomiting started, each without much warning.  With some extra doses of medicine for nausea and time resting on the couch, Colby realized that he had been relying on his youth and health to get him through the next several weeks instead of relying on Christ.  Whether you call it physical rebuke, or loving discipline, Colby certainly learned and grew because of it!  With both an adjustment in attitude and in medication, we are pleased to report that the rest of Colby’s first treatment week was great and nausea free—all by God’s grace working through your prayer. This story is only one of many this week that has drawn us humbly to our knees before our God. 
            God has carried us this far, so why would He ask us to walk through this phase of treatment on our own?  Do we not believe God when He says, “I will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)?”  And why would we even try to lean on our meager strength when we can lean on our eternally faithful and all-powerful God who can move mountains?  He has already moved the biggest mountain—our sin (which seems to be all the more apparent in our daily lives these days) that separated us from knowing and enjoying God—by sending Jesus to die in our place.  And by no merit of our own, because of Christ’s death and resurrection for those who trust in Him, we have the privilege of knowing and enjoying God forever.  Wow!  So our hearts have been humbled this week and our prayer is this: “Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need (Hebrews 4:16).”

Prayer Requests:

1.     1. Praise God for a great first week of treatment and for invaluable lessons learned from Scripture this week.

2.     2. Praise God for our church family, who continues to speak truth into our lives when we are at our weakest.

3.     3. Praise God for our neighbors, bosses, and co-workers.  Their acts of kindness have opened up time for us to enjoy time together as a family despite the busyness of our work and home routines.

4.     4. Pray for endurance and effective treatments.  Colby has 5 1/2 more weeks of combined radiation and chemotherapy, followed by several months of continuing chemotherapy to endure.  We are praying for healing, and trusting in the Lord.  More importantly, we are praying that God be glorified regardless of the outcome.

5.     5. “We’ve a story to tell to the nations.”  Continue to pray that we would have opportunities to be faithful witnesses to the grace of God in our lives.  Colby is still looking for opportunities to share his testimony in any format, event, or country.  We know that God has great plans for us in this world, and we are excited to see how He will use us! 


Thankful for your faithful prayers,

Emily, Colby, and Jireh